Erica Scott: Life, Love and Spanking

Ruminations, opinionated observations, darkly humorous blathering and the occasional rant from an outspoken spanko and unapologetic attention wh–, um, hog.

My day of kinky support

As of today, Tuesday, John is still in the hospital, but he may be released tonight. Since tonight and the next couple of days will be a whirlwind of getting him settled and running errands and taking him to three different doctor appointments, I won’t have any time for updating this. So today, while I have a bit of me time, I’m going to catch up with last Tuesday, which really was a great day. I honestly believe it helped prepare me for having my life thrown back into a blender the following day.

Last Tuesday, Steve showed up with open arms and open heart, ready to listen and support. I was feeling edgy and impatient, and even when the spanking I so desperately craved had started, I sniped at his phraseology. When he said “You need this” too often for my liking, I snapped, “Yes, you mentioned that a few dozen times.” That got me thigh slaps. OK, I deserved them. “Got anything else to say?” he asked. “No, no,” I hastily assured him, trying to clear the stars of pain floating around my eyes. “I didn’t think so,” he said. “If you need this, then it doesn’t matter how many times I say it, does it?” (Uh… well, it’s still redundant, but I didn’t say so at that moment!)

After a while, the impatience gave way to what I was really feeling — extreme frustration, coupled with guilt over being snappish and tense with John. Granted, in my defense, he’s a godawful patient and so OCD about everything being done just so in his house that it gives me fits. But still… I was at my wits’ end several times over the past weekend, and I couldn’t wait to go home. So when Steve said, “Take this like a good girl,” I blurted, “There is NOTHING good about me!” “Excuse me?” “I said, there is nothing good about me. I’m sick of all this, I’m sick of him, I just want to run away from all of this and have my life back. I’m a terrible, selfish person.”

“You are wrong,” he replied calmly, not stopping. “You have no idea what kind of person you are, how much you’ve done, how much you continue to do. He’s lucky to have you. You’re not a terrible person, you are exhausted and stressed out and that’s why I’m here.”

And of course, I cried.

He held me in his lap for a long time until I calmed down, pulling in the first deep breaths I may have taken in about a week. “Ready for the ottoman?” he asked. I knew I needed a little more, so I bravely assumed the position while he went to fetch a couple of implements. Only two this time: the Lexan paddle and the crop. Just enough to give me a couple of intense sensations and coax out that last bit of stress.

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Afterward, I actually dozed off for a little bit in his arms. That is a rarity for me, so it speaks to how very tired I was. And how safe I felt.

Thank you, Steve. ♥

But wait, there’s more! I still had my dinner date with Alex and SpankCake later. Alex was running a little late (traffic), but SC and I got to the restaurant early, so we caught up for a half-hour until Alex joined us, and then we were off into another marathon of catching up, airing stress, laughing, talking kink, and just enjoying each other as we always do. We beat our record this time: six hours. We met at 5:30, intending to make it an “early evening,” and ended up leaving at 11:30.

And of course, there had to be dessert. We wanted a brownie sundae, but they were out of brownies. Booo! So we chose a regular ice-cream sundae instead, and made short work of it. Now you see it…

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…Now you don’t. (Alex ate all the cherries, BTW)

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Thank you, my sweet friends. ♥

I feel so out of the loop with everyone and everything, but I guess that’s to be expected. This week, the lion’s share of the spanking scene is convening in Atlantic City for the Boardwalk Badness Weekend (which ends up being more like five days or so), and usually I feel horribly sad not being there, but right now, I just can’t think about it. So I hope all my friends there will have a blast and hold a good thought for John and his recovery.

And hopefully I can get some readership back for this blog! Sorry to have been so silent lately.

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20 thoughts on “My day of kinky support

  1. Buffalo Bob Smith RIP.

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  2. Life, love and spanking is what this blog is all about. I’m very very glad you had such love and spanking with Steve and the Girls. Now I’m hoping your life with John calms down and the stress evaporates as his health improves. I’ll keep coming to your blog to read about that. Best wishes to you both. Joe.

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  3. Joe — thank you. I sure hope so too.

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  4. I guess Alex will face some consequences for eating all cherries! 😉
    Great to find some real relief, this day – hope next few days will be some real progress. Hugs.

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  5. Wow Erica overall this is a very positive post! and happy you for you that you got some things you needed. Hope it helped replenish.

    On an aside my favorite part of the post was surprisingly not the obvious.
    No – not hearing about the spanking.
    Rather hearing about talking with/catching up with friends for six hours!

    Best,
    Enzo

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  6. I’m glad Steve and the girls were there for you last week! I’m sorry this is all so stressful for you and John. Just remember it will get easier.

    P.S. I’m finally getting around to posting something…

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  7. Enzo — my girls are the bestest. 🙂

    Jay — oh, good! I look forward to reading it.

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  8. A.E. Mouse on said:

    Steve was right, you have no idea what a good person you are. a lesser woman would have bailed on John…probably long ago.

    Anon E. Mouse

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  9. missy Dean on said:

    All your feeling is normal. This has been a long time coming , take care of you then John. We can get by sending loving and healing thoughts your way! You are Super Terrific and always real……..

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  10. It is MORE THAN OK to have emotions; the deeply HEALTHY human thing is that you let yourself admit them. The great thing is that you are sharing this part of yourself with your friends. Why? Because ne of your friends will be in a very similar emotional crisis and they – he, she or me – will draw on what you have written when they need it.

    Yes, you are a good person.
    Jon

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  11. poppamark on said:

    I echo the above posts. You are a great lady and the feelings you are having are completely normal. The thing is you may feel like running away; but you won’t. Love gives and takes, seldom when you want it too but always when it needs too. We always want to receive and take the fruit of love but in the end it is the giving of yourself that is the most satisfying though it may not seem it at the time.
    Now it is your time to give. It will come back to you many times over!

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  12. Jon — if others can relate and get some benefit from all this, then I’m glad to hear it. Have to believe there is something good to all of it.

    Poppa — thank you. Yeah, I’m already getting the giving… from my friends, and it means a lot.

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  13. Hi Erica — I read on FB that John is home,that’s AWESOME 🙂 So glad you got to see Steve,He always gives you what you need and want 🙂 That ice cream looks very YUMMY 🙂 You and John are always in my thoughts.Much Love and hugs from naughty girl Jade/ Emily Jean

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  14. Jade — thank you. 🙂

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  15. We are our own harshest critics. I’m glad you had Steve there for you. And an evening with friends and catching up is always nice!

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  16. Lea — yes, it really is. I do love those women.

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