Erica Scott: Life, Love and Spanking

Ruminations, opinionated observations, darkly humorous blathering and the occasional rant from an outspoken spanko and unapologetic attention wh–, um, hog.

It was 20 years ago today…

Yeah, I know, I’m dating myself with that song lyric, but whatever.

I’ve had a whole lot of “firsts” over the past twenty years. But on Memorial Day 1996, the ultimate first happened. Possibly even more monumental than the first time I had sex. On that Monday twenty years ago, I crossed over the line between fantasy and reality. After years and years of wondering and dreaming and fantasizing, at last I knew what it was like to be spanked for real.

And, as I’ve said many times in the past, it was even better than I’d imagined. I still live in the same apartment as I did then. I can look around and picture that day — the nerves, the excitement, the intensity, the sheer joy. The way my legs shook when I looked in the mirror and checked out my spanked backside for the very first time. I can still call up the man’s image in my head and hear his voice, even though he disappeared from my life as quickly as he came into it.

Twenty years! So many memories. So many spankings; hundreds, at least. Parties large and small. Video shoots. Thousands of words I’ve written, what with three books and countless posts (forums, blogs, FetLife, etc.). The parade of friends and play partners over the years. Gales of laughter. Buckets of tears. Sweet moments that touched my heart, and losses that broke it.

So many broken implements. 🙂

And, with the exception of the first three months, John has been with me through it all. ♥

The first few years involved a lot of fumbling and stumbling about, trying to figure it all out and determine my place in this new world. I think things began to fully solidify for me when Erica Scott was born in 2000. I have to laugh. Despite the evidence to the contrary in this old body, Erica Scott is merely a teenager.

When I was going through my darkness a couple of months ago, I was telling Steve how I felt like I mattered to no one and I could just disappear. That I was nobody. He said something like,”Erica Scott isn’t nobody,” to which I answered, “Erica Scott doesn’t exist.” That’s not true. She does. She’s me. Rather, she’s fully enmeshed within the soul and psyche of Erica [real name] — crazy, complicated, square peg me. As long as I live, Erica Scott will live too.

There is a sad irony to this occasion, and I’m a little embarrassed about it, honestly. On a day where the country is acknowledging so many brave souls who died, I am celebrating the day where a huge part of me began to live.

Where will TTWD take me from here? I have no idea. But I hope you’ll all stick around with me to find out.

Because, for now, I’m not going anywhere. 🙂

 

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23 thoughts on “It was 20 years ago today…

  1. Happy 20th Anniversary Erica!!! Trust me, I’ll be sticking around. Please don’t disappear. You do matter. I just celebrated Anniversary number 2. Years 1 and 2 were smooth sailing, but year number 3 started off a little rocky but is beginning to smooth out. Was ready to call it quits for good but now we will see what happens!!!

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  2. Happy lustrum, Erica! Imagine the number of swats.

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  3. Anonymous on said:

    Sounds like you need a twentieth anniversary spanking.

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  4. KB — I’m glad you’re not leaving! There are so many good experiences to be had, if we can manage to wade through the not-so-good ones.

    MrJ — thank you.

    Anonymous — no doubt.

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  5. Anonymous on said:

    Lets hope for 20 more years of comment, snark, laughter, tears and joy. All this and a most wonderful photo too.
    Downunder Don

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  6. Don — we’ll see. Thanks. 🙂

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  7. Jadelyn Mathias on said:

    Happy 20th Anniversary Erica ♡ You are a true legend ♡ Since we became friends on MySpace in 2009, I have looked up to you I wouldn’t know a lot about the spanking scene etc if it wasn’t for you. You was always there for me, I want to thank you because you are so amazing 🙂 ♡ ♡ ♡ Nice pic, I will always stick around 😉 It would be so cool, if you did a video of you getting a 20th anniversary spanking 🙂 Much Love and hugs from naughty girl Jade / Emily Jean xxxxx ♡

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  8. Jade — thank you, dear. I wish I could do that video as well. Unfortunately, Steve is still sick, so we have to put anything like that on hold.

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  9. anonymous on said:

    Happy Anniversary!
    I don’t smoke but can’t help thinking of that cigarette slogan,
    “You’ve come a long way baby!” 🙂

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  10. A. — ah yes, Virginia Slims, the “women’s cigarette.” Steve Martin: “Why are they called ‘women’s cigarettes’? Do they have little breasts on them or something?”

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  11. Erica, congratulations, on your 20th Anniversary . First of all let me say, what beautiful prose, your blog has always been for me. Yes, I have shed a tear or two, in getting to know you. Yes, you have warmed my heart, as much as I would have wished to warm your voluptuous bare bottom. Yes, you are one of a kind, my Yiddishe ‘spanko’ friend. Thank you. XXX Luv ya.

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  12. Anonymous on said:

    Well, I wish you 20 more years of TTWD and hope you keep finding new ways of exploring spanking (and, of course, sharing your findings with us).

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  13. Anonymous — I hope I do too! Thanks.

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  14. Happy anniversary Erica…. It is wonderful to live in a country that permits us to have our own lives, sexuality, and KINK. So it is a good way to honor Memorial day… Soldiers fought and died for FREEDOM…
    Only missing part is you did not mention being spanked on the day of this post…. Hope you make up for that oversight ASAP.
    Love your smile..( and your spanked bottom also)
    bottoms up
    Red

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  15. Red — thank you! I know, that was a dreadful oversight. But what can I say, Steve was sick. Soon, I hope!

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  16. A glorious day indeed, and what spectacular things have happened since. For me, it was finding and getting to know you in so many of your fascinating facets. Everyone’s world you’ve touched has been immeasurably enriched. Congratulations and many, many thanks.

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  17. Anonymous on said:

    I do apologize but “Sgt. Pepper taught the band to play” comes immediately to mind when I read the title of your post.

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  18. Anonymous — no need to apologize. I did say I was dating myself with that lyric. It’s exactly what I had in mind as well. 🙂

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  19. Congratulations 🙂 It’s been since 1985 for me. Unfortunately, mine wasn’t so great. The woman I spanked was a vanilla and was “doing me a favor”. But it was experience none the less.

    Hard to believe I’ve been spanking women on and off for almost 31 years

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  20. Quai — I wish I’ve been doing it that long!

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