Erica Scott: Life, Love and Spanking

Ruminations, opinionated observations, darkly humorous blathering and the occasional rant from an outspoken spanko and unapologetic attention wh–, um, hog.

Size DOES matter

As in the size of riding crops! (WTF did you think I was talking about?)

Steve showed up at my door yesterday brandishing a crop I hadn’t seen before; he said he’d rediscovered it going through some of his stuff. The first thing I noticed was that the tip, while leather (there is no way I will allow a rubber-tipped crop; I’ve experienced that and don’t want to again), was very small and skinny, until the broader tip of our favorite. Uh oh. I’ve been around implements long enough to know that oftentimes, smaller means more painful, because it concentrates the sensation in smaller areas.

I was right.

Yesterday was intense anyway, for various reasons. I’m so damn stressed lately; things going on with John that I’d rather not go into (his work), plus all the anger and negativity everywhere over this @#$%ing election. Just the other day, I was called a “leftist Jew” on Twitter. I felt overwhelmed with tension and was fairly bursting with it when Steve arrived. We talked for a long time and I wept before he even touched me.

I also wept during our scene, and afterward. I guess I needed to.

But oh, that crop. I hate that thing! It’s nasty! I like sting, but this sting is different, since it’s so concentrated. It felt like I was being stung by multiple bees, again and again. I tried my best to keep still, to not squirm and writhe, but it was a challenge. Breathe, I thought. Settle. Accept. Take it in.

Feel. Just feel. Then you don’t have to think.


Afterward, I was drained and tired, so drowsy. All I wanted to do was curl up and sleep all afternoon. But I had to be all adult-y and stuff and work.

Someone suggested yesterday that I stay off all social media for the next two weeks. But I know I can’t do that. However, I no longer watch the news, or even any of the talk shows. I don’t want to hear about what’s going on. I have retreated into nostalgia — lately, I’ve been watching MeTV, AntennaTV and the Buzzr channel (old game shows). Although it’s pretty surreal to watch an 80s Johnny Carson show and hear him mention Trump. Some things never change…

Ugh. Must go work out. Must copy edit. And tonight’s reward, a new Law and Order: SVU episode. Last week it was pre-empted… for that fucking debate! 😛

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15 thoughts on “Size DOES matter

  1. Anonymous on said:

    I think the whole world is collectively holding its breath and waiting for the US election to just go away. I have never seen such an intense campaign that has saturated our airwaves…I can only imagine what it is like over there.
    And the only thing that I can think of is; will the Canadian PM make the US build a wall to keep out all the fleeing Americans if Trump is elected.
    Good luck staying sane for the next 2 weeks.
    Downunder Don


  2. Chibob on said:

    I hate this election too. I’ll have to hold my nose while voting. They both suck. I’m a Bernie supporter.


  3. Anonymous on said:

    The thing I hate most about the this election is, they can both lose, somebody has to win. Too bad


  4. Anonymous on said:

    Typing mistake, what I meant to say is I hate that they can’t both lose.


  5. Don — I will try.

    B0b — just remember who Bernie is supporting.

    Anonymous — honestly, I’m not all that crazy about who I’m voting for. But for me, comparing the evils of the two candidates is like comparing a hangnail to a heart attack.


  6. Robert Holbrook on said:

    Where did Steve get that crop? My girlfriend wants to get one.



  7. Okay, sort of off topic, but you mentioned copy editing. What style(s) do you use? AP, Chicago Manual of Style, other(s)? I spent my entire career writing and editing, so call me a word nerd if you wish. I’m happily retired now, however. Just curious.


    • Biker — Chicago is still kind of the standard these days, but I have used AP as well, when I worked for a magazine publisher. And of course, each client has their own set of style preferences.


  8. Nasty crop – I guess pun intended given your intro on the elections. ;-/
    And yes, holding my breath too.


  9. Bobbie Jo on said:

    On the election, I heard one person refer to the “two clowns” running for the presidency. Fits the situation, don’t you think? It isn’t anything new, though. Some of the stuff in the 19th century was just as vitriolic.

    That crop looks nasty. My top used one the last time, per request, and I didn’t particularly like it. I might get used to it if she tosses it in the mix.


  10. Anonymous on said:

    26TH I flew out to LAX Wed morning for the first time in 4 years. Rented a Ford Mustang Convertible and headed for Venice listening to the Doors on the car stereo LA Woman. Weather was perfect renewed some old friendships and maybe had a few too many margaritas. Great Trip though very nostalgic … back in Chicago now. Cheers Erica!

    The Grinch


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