What do I want?
Happy Friday, kids. It’s been another action-packed week in Pandemic Paradise. Work and workouts, texting with friends, and way too damn much social media. Earlier this week on Twitter, I had the temerity to suggest that people who willfully refuse to wear masks in areas where they are mandated (I’m not talking about the homeless, or other people who don’t have access to them) should be fined. Ohhhhh my. Among many other things, I was called “a good little Nazi youth.” Yeeeesh. With all the other insults, I just deleted them and blocked the people who sent them. But with that one, I couldn’t resist replying “I’m Jewish, you ignorant fuck.”
Ah, good times.
So, coming to the end of another week of dodging the plague, what do I want?
I know some people are having lots of this, but I really don’t want to go that route.
I suppose I could always go with some of this…
I have plenty of this in my freezer…
And thanks to my thoughtful friend Jay, I also have plenty of this…
Wait — maybe something salty instead? This is what I had for dinner a while back. Don’t judge me.
Plenty of choices!
But I really don’t want any of the above.
My stomach is well fed and not at all hungry. However, my skin, my body, my heart and soul are hungry.
Goddamn it all to hell, this is what I want.
But I keep thinking about all the deaths. All the people who can’t breathe. The escalating cases in my state. And no matter how I try to get around it, there seems to be no safe way to play right now.
Sooooo… where’s that @#$%ing chocolate??
(sigh) Have a good weekend, y’all. Be safe.
My fear and anxiety surrounding this virus seems to hit me in waves. The case count is also increasing closer to where I live. My anxiety is a bit higher today, so I really want some coffee and chocolate or a brownie or an ice cream…or to be spanked, have a good cry, and be held. 🤷🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
Jay — we want the same things, my friend. ♥
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Not so hard really. 😉 Just bare your bottom, bend over, stick your head out the window, close the window partially and let me go to work on your backside. Of course any passerby’s will wonder at the expressions on your face. lol
Best wishes as we all struggle through these difficult times.
Jon — that paints quite a picture!!
Erica!! Always spot-on and sooooo entertaining! BOY do I wish I lived closer to you… Keep ‘em coming, my friend…
Dale — glad you enjoyed it, thanks!
This comment is going to be a partial continuation of my comment on your post of July 24th.
The Corona Virus isn’t going away in any immidiate future, so all of us are going to have to get used to some new standard practices in various areas. So sooner or later, you are going to have to find a way to deal with the world that includes the risk of catching this Corona virus crap.
At the end of the day it’s going to have to become a question of “playing the odds”, just like we do with everything else in life. There are so many things that can potentially kill, harm or injure us, so if we were concerned about them all the time, we simply couldn’t live in any way.
Work on handling your “fear” of this thing, and try to reframe it in your mind, so that you can handle it better. I’m not saying that you shouldn’t act sensibly and be safe, but there are things you can do with an acceptable degree of safety, and there are ways for you to play within such safety margins.
Back in your post of July 24th you talked about a guy that was also going crazy and wanted to potentially play with you. Unless there are compelling reasons for you to believe that this guy is not a Corona safe play partner at this point, pursue the matter and work out what precautions the two of you can take, so that you can play.
Just keep hanging on! The 2020 Spanktoberfest has been canceled….have to wait to hear about Dom Con New Oreleans….Love, “Susan” 🙂
Kyrel — you make good sense, and thank you. The only part I am questioning is why you put fear in quotes. It’s a real thing, not just in my head. I have a friend who is half my age who had Covid and now is dealing with a post-Covid syndrome that may never go away and is essentially trashing her life. She can barely take a shower, let alone work. It’s terrifying.
Until we have some proper leadership and guidance on this thing, we are all on our own. And with people acting like idiots, refusing to wear masks, gathering in public, etc., it’s not safe. I’m not completely paranoid — I know people who won’t even go grocery shopping right now, and I still go out for essentials. But play isn’t essential, even though it feels like it is, for my mental health. I blow off in these blogs because I’m frustrated and I know others can relate, but I don’t expect that I’ll be able to really do anything about it for a while. And yeah, it sucks. (sigh)
The reason I put fear in “” is because I don’t have the impression that your level of concern for this thing warrants the use of the word fear. I may have misinterpreted your level of concern, or I may simply be assigning the word fear a slightly different interpretation than you, possibly due to English being a 2nd language to me.
The US is in a shitty situation with this mess at the moment. No arguments against it from me. Though we’re not wearing masks here in Denmark at this point, people sure as hell ought to be doing it in the US at this point in time!
I agree with you that the potential consequences of catching Covid are not pleasant on any level. But we’re back to the matter of “what are the odds” of catching it, if you take som sensible precautions. And even if you catch it, there’s a pretty wide spread of how affected people become, ranging from “get no symptoms at all”, and up to “die from it”. And then you have all the variations in between those two extremes. And the majority of those who do get sick, don’t die from it, and it also appears to be the minority that suffers truely debilitating effects for extended periods of time, such as you describe your friend going through.
You are, of course, the final arbiter of what constitute “essential” in your life, but I’ll point out that our mental wellbeing is a fairly important thing in our lives…
Kyrel — you make good sense, and I appreciate your taking the time to write this, thank you.
May I say that you speak English as a second language much better than a lot of first-language speakers I know?
I think the part that worries me most is not so much catching it, as carrying it. There is so much unknown about asymptomatic carriers. And if I were to somehow carry it to John, I would be devastated.
Erica – I can follow your concern about unwittingly becoming a non-symptomatic carrier, and accidentally infecting John with it. I share the same kind of worry with regards to my parrents. However, I’ve decided to “play the odds”, and then “just” be very aware of any signs of symptoms or information about the disease showing up in my local area. My biggest worry is really that my son catches it in his daycare and brings it home amongst all of the normal diseases the kids typically “exchange” in that places. But again, I refuse to worry about this all the time. I’d go mad if I did.
And of course you may, and thank you for the compliment 🙂
Thanks for your thoughts, Erica. I thoroughly enjoyed your book, “Late Bloomer” as did another friend in the scene, Susan (“The one and only”). I hope others give it a read as it is compelling and very well written.
Denys — thank you! That’s very nice of you.
I think your concern and your protective measures are entirely warranted and proportionate to the threat we face. Those who survive this plague will be the cautious and the lucky. I choose not to rely upon luck alone.
I want to be here when life returns to some form of normal. Let’s all celebrate our liberation together in 2021.
Erica – I was scrolling through your blog and realized that it is 10 years (Aug.8/10)
since you started in your current format. Congratulations – – That is an astounding achievement! I realize it must be frustrating when you don’t know if anyone appreciates your hard work, but please know, you are truly loved and admired.
You are a vibrant, exciting, stimulating woman, and just knowing you vicariously through your blog and tweets makes me feel close to royalty.
– – Do you think Myspace will ever make a comeback?
Bonnie — yes please, let’s! Or as I’m calling it, 2020 2.0. Because come on, 2020 needs a do-over.
Anonymous — thank you! That’s very kind of you to say. I didn’t realize it had been 10 years already. I hope to have more interesting things to post again when we’re out of this damn pandemic. MySpace? Nah. MySpace belonged to its own time, I think.
What you need to do is find a top who already had the virus and recovered. He can’t get it again so he can’t pass it to you and even if you had it and did not know it you could not pass it to him. That should be completely safe.
Anonymous — wellll… safe, yes, but a bit far-fetched, I’m afraid. Has it been established that one is immune after having it? It’s been my understanding that the virus is constantly changing and morphing and there are no guarantees about future immunity. It’s so disheartening how very few answers we have about this thing.
I support your caution. John has to be protected and I can think of nobody better to do so.
There are no easy answers and no short cuts. In the meantime enjoy the Mrs. Sees!
Anon E. Mouse
Mouse — oh, I am! I still have some left. This damn pandemic is wrecking a lot of things, but it can’t take away my chocolate!
I agree with you about the idiots refusing to wear masks. It has become a uniform for the right wing storm troopers. The US has weathered the pandemic worse than any other nation, We are no longer the world leaders we were just a few short years ago. Like your John I am in several high risk categories and frankly resent the COVID deniers.
Bob — I’m sorry you’re high risk. Please stay safe. And yes… I resent them too.
Erica Hi again ! Is this the best way to contact you ?I was hoping to discuss the possibility maybe of meeting up with you sometime?As I am coming to the coast soon and would at least like to get in touch ?I am VERY new to the scene officially but have always been entranced by both your passion and your openness. Would love to discuss more at your leisure Thanks so much Rob
Rob — Hi. Actually, no, not the best way. You mentioned in your other comment that we’ve spoken before, so I think you have my email address, no?